I have so many lessons to learn from this one word. I question constantly. Why is this such a hard lesson for me. Why do some people find it so easy to eat healthy or at the very least to have a much more sane balance around this ubiquitous little word. Why has it taken me so long to be able to face this word with more depth and honesty?
I will write more about my journey of searching for meaning. That also doesn’t come easy to me. How is it that some people can throw themselves into loving whatever it is that they find fascinating. We really do have an endless supply of wonder that surrounds us: bugs, plants, animals, people, design, our minds, our bodies, our souls, and this list could break it down and go on and on. There are people who are fascinated and can study anything.
I have struggled to find that meaning. I know that food is an issue for me for many reasons. And when I look around me there are so many that have taken their own challenges and met them head on. Research, implementing changes, and many becoming experts and sharing their knowledge and journeys with others. Do a search for any ailment that has a connection to food and you find it. Want to ferment foods, eat vegan, eat paleo, and on and on. It is available.
I suppose it is a part of my lessons to learn for this soul journey that I need to stop comparing. I am here to learn my lessons and I need to see those around me as inspiration and a guide that I can use and not use them as a tool to show how I don’t measure up, will never change, and make me feel worse. That has not helped and unconsciously I have been doing this for a long time.
For a long time I have done a lot of research, searching, learning, and reading. Now is the time for action.
My action here is to take better care of my health. It is not about dieting. For me it is about feeling less joint pain, gut issues, and gaining more energy.
2017 is my year of action. To not just know that I need to make changes but to start no matter how small. I want to feel better and I know that making changes to what I eat and being more gentle with myself are the first keys to this call of action.